Ok, so clearly no one is going to read this. I mean, why would anyone? No one even knows it is here.
Having said that, I guess I will just get a few things off my chest. Its not like anyone is going to mind, right?
In a nutshell, I hate my life. I just really hate where I am right now. I hate my job. I mean, I really hate my job. Who doesn't, right? And with the economy the way it is right now, I know I am lucky to even have a job. At least that is what I keep telling myself...
And of course, I feel stuck. I can't just quit my job. As much as I would LOVE to, I cannot just up and quit. Bills need to be paid and its not like there are so many jobs popping up out there. And because I am stuck, I feel sense of frustration and rage I never knew possible. I mean, its not like I am going to do anything rash or stupid like blow up my place of employment, but I am very angry and feel it constantly. I guess its the idea of not having a say in my own life, of feeling like I don't have any choice. I am stuck. And it is a feeling that I cannot stand. I just don't know what I am supposed to do.
And it is not just my job. It is most things about my life. I have so many things I need to change and I just can't seem to find the motivation or whatever to change them.
I just don't seem to have any direction. I feel lost without a compass. I don't know what I am supposed to be doing and I can't seem to find any clues to get me pointed in the right direction. What I do know is that where I am and what I am doing right now is not working for me...at all....
So my last post was pretty light-hearted and this one is, well, not.
If anyone is out there...leave a message. Maybe even throw me a life-saver??
And if you are out there, thanks for listening :)