Tuesday, March 23, 2010

A Darker Subject

My recent posts have been mainly centered around motivation and inspiration. As I stated before, I have been looking into the how and why of motivation, etc. Something that occurred to me while doing this is that it might be prudent to take a look at what keeps us from truly achieving or getting what we want from life. It made me think a little more about my own upbringing and made me realize what beliefs I had that were held over from childhood. What have we "learned" that makes us the way we are? And how do these lessons impact us?

What I have come to realize is that in my upbringing I was "taught" not to trust anyone. And that has caused me to not make connections with other people. I think this has been a contributing factor with some of the unhappiness in my life.

Part of this realization, however, came from visiting and reviewing other blogs. I noticed that what set mine apart was almost a total lack of personal depth. I mean--who am I, right? I know I wanted to be anonymous, but not so much as to alienate people from reading this blog or maybe connecting with me in some way. Or maybe that was my (unconscious) way of continuing to keep people at arm's length.

Suffice it to say that all of this talk about inspiration and motivation has (finally) caused me to dig a little deeper into something I had never fully realized before. I am still trying to find my voice here, so I hope everyone can forgive the see-saw back and forth. But I guess in order to find my voice, I will need to start from the beginning--my beginning.

I guess, in conclusion, what I have come to realize is that I have unveiled my first goal--to make myself more accessible to people. And I guess right here is a good place to start. In the spirit of my new-found self-realization I will be posting some background about, well, me.  It will be my first step into opening myself up and allowing others to know about me. My hope is that some of you will help guide me, show me the way and give me some pointers of where I can improve.


  1. I get what you mean about your upbringing affecting how trusting you are with other people, I'm like that too. But with my blog (the new one) I'm trying to forget about the people that might be reading it, and just write it for me, so that I let people in without even realising it :)

  2. I also have trouble connecting with other people. Probably part of the reason I started a blog was to try to do so. Don't be afraid to open up and let people know about yourself. I was at first but I'm beginning to slowly let go of that fear. I only wish that I could do the same in real life.

  3. Just me,

    i really like your posts. Kind words are always good to hear. I am new to bloging come visit if you would like.


  4. I like your blog/we have similar thoughts/posts in common. Check me out and we may have to link up sometime